6 Months
Saturday, March 10th, 2007Today marks the 6 month anniversary of Amy’s stillbirth. “Anniversary” seems the wrong word because in my mind it is to do with celebration and happy times, and today hasn’t been happy.
We went to Fletcher Moss park to go and see Amy’s tree (the tree we scattered her ashes around) and I took some photo’s. I was hoping that the sky would be blue for a nice background to the branches, but the sky was grey instead.
I have been getting sadder and sadder recently, a delayed grief. I am realising what I am missing with the loss of Amy and more things trigger thoughts about her. Mary-Lou is learning to cope with her sadness more and more but I amonly just realising my grief now. I find myself getting angry quickerand when I get stressed I am not able to calm myself down like I used to. Also, my concentration span is shorter which is frustrating when I’m working.
Mary-Lou and I often think about the alternate universe where she didn’t die and what we would all be doing at that moment. It is such a strange idea that the last 6 months could have been filled with joy (and tiredness!) as we looked after her, watched her develop and, most of all, got to know her.
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